Here we go again....

Hmm...another year gone by and typically enough "this year went by toooooooo fast". When we think of the year gone by, it's natural to forget the beginning of the year and what it was like. We tend to summarize the year as per the last few months..but in fact there's so much more that defines it.

2006 has been a defining year in more ways than one. Life's changed. I've grown up. And so many other things in between.

At the beginning of this year I was in college, obsessing over exams I knew I would do badly in, fantasising about a life outside of college, and of course being lambasted for every move I (incorrectly) made and every word I (unthinkingly) spoke! And I grew.
That over, I had the most "eventful" study leave of my life where I turned the two words on their head and took a leave from studies right up to the very last minute! Definitions of friendship, bonding and memories formed themselves in my mind overnight. And I grew.
Exams loomed large over my head but strangely enough I didn't even care. Got them over with. In the middle of it all, V came back. For good. Never been more relieved knowing that this time I didn't have to count the days. Of course we fought the day he arrived. And I grew.
The months after that are still quite hazy in my head. I don't really remember doing much that was particularly constructive. Got used to having V around. Fought like crazy but survived. And I grew.
With college over, life truly changed. Friends found their calling and left town. Others found ways of busying themselves. While I turned down one job offer after another wondering all the while whether I was doing the right thing. Kept telling myself I couldn't just do any damn thing and expect to be happy. I had to be happy doing it to continue doing it. The faith wavered and the mind kept trying to drill sense into the heart. The heart continued to reign and thank God for it. Happy doing what I do. And I grew.
I learnt that some people are always going to be there even if you don't believe it all the time. I learnt that some people are just fake and that I have a very high tolerance level! I learnt that patience really is a virtue and I was better of being patient than being the impatient cranky person I seem to have become. I learnt that the past haunts you only as long as you let it. I learnt that some people just can't forgive while others will forgive forget and forgive again. I learnt that being genuine is the best way to win hearts. I learnt that life really isn't as simple as I'd made it out to be. I learnt that being footloose and fancyfree wasn't exactly what life was all about. I learnt that faith is the most important thing in any relationship, at every level. I learnt that I can smile and fool even myself about how I really feel. I learnt that my independence, especially mental and spiritual, is sacred to me. I've learnt (for the nth time) that love hurts. But, I've also learnt that love strenghtens and nurtures.
And I grew....
It's the end of the year and a million questions remain unanswered and a million more dreams remain unrealised. Prayers need fulfilling and life needs more living. I grew but I need to keep growing. I'm still very childish. Perhaps will always be. But I have learnt more than I can hope to pen here. 2006 wasn't really spectacular but I grew. 2006 taught me a lot, even when I thought I was having fun or plain being stupid.
I expect a lot out of the coming year and I hope it turns out that way.

Each year brings with it a hope of a fresh start, greater opportunities and dreams fulfilled. I wish you all that and much more. The new year holds a lot of significance for me at present and I hope things do turn around. I wish you the same.

Here's to 2007! Cheers!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!